heartbreak soundtrack

exactly one month ago today, i broke up with a dear friend. this is the first time a friend has deliberately broken up with me. i've had plenty of friends whom i simply lost touch with- i don't consider these breakups. this friend said to me: "I don't want to hang out with you anymore." (i say it's the first time, but i work in an elementary school, + kids are telling other kids all the time "I don't want to be your friend", so i'm sure it happened to me when i was little, too, but if i don't remember it, then that makes this time the first time.)

hurts like hell to be flat-out rejected. i was talking to another dear friend about this and we discovered we disagree on how to deal with heart hurt. she likes to watch happy movies + read "pastel-covered books" (her phrase for novels about shopaholics or stylish single women in a city). i gravitate towards art that was created out of someone else's pain; makes me feel less lonely. "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind" is a prime example. so for ppl like me, here's a list of my top heartbreak songs. make sure you play them on repeat:

"To Make You Feel My Love"- lots of versions, but i like Adele's

"Dreaming With a Broken Heart"- John Mayer

"Comfortable"- John Mayer

"In Your Atmosphere"- John Mayer (he writes a lot of heartbreak songs; he must have lots of experience)
"I Can Make It Through the Rain"- Mariah Carey
"You Got It Bad"- Usher (watch the Boondocks episode for a laugh)

"Gravity"- Sara Bareilles

"When She Loved Me"- Sarah McLachlan, from Toy Story 2

"Smile"- also lots of versions; i like Madeleine Peyroux
"Without You"- Rent
"I'll Cover You"- Rent; technically a happy song, but then one of them dies
"Say Goodbye"- Postal Service
"The Scientist"- Coldplay
"Ain't No Sunshine When She's Gone"- Bill Withers
"Tracks of My Tears"- Smokey Robinson
"My Life Would Suck Without You"- Kelly Clarkson
"4 + 20"- Joss Stone
"Still Hurting"- The Last Five Years
"I'd Give It All For You"- Songs for a New World